Hello everyone. I just had another soul-wrenching episode resulting AGAIN in a totally shaved head, (after 20 mos. of growth, longer than I'd managed to get for YEARS) The pain and humiliation and self hatred and complete despair are almost more than I can bear. Almost wanted to die at first, now in deep depression). After trying, unsuccessfully, to buy wigs online, (which is very expensive even if you just send them back due to the horrendous quality/fit, as there's always a fee plus mailing costs,) I would like to know if anyone has advice on finding a wig/wig shop/stylist who is within a day's drive of Iowa. There are many wig places in Chicago, I know, but I really want a classic, mod and well made wig and not being acquainted with the city I simply can't discern the shops I'd like from the ones that'd be a waste of time. I am desperate @ this point, and will be using up the last of my savings to travel up to the area, get a hotel, make wig app.'t, probably have to travel back a second time to pick up wig, and the thought of doing all this while I am so depressed and ashamed to even be seen in my small town, ( I've been wearing winter hats even to go to the store for groceries, which I only do at the crack of dawn so as to avoid people seeing me) well, I am really suffering right now. My family does not care, has no sympathy for the "it's not your fault" part. Their harassment of my to "get over it and stop being so selfish" really makes the symptoms/behavior worse, as I enter into a ptsd type of prolonged panic and grief. At 53 years old, one of my worst nightmares is coming true- facing an entire hot summer bald, overweight, alone and depressed. I never thought this would be how my life played out, but the trich/ocd/bdd/ has taken over and destroyed my existence... I have been trying to get effective help for two decades now.