my personal rockbottom (33M)

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my personal rockbottom (33M)
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My battle w/ this is going on 15+ years now, off and on. It grew out of acne, which I took Accutane for. Then as I began shaving, I discovered ingrown hairs, and that a hair could curl up and live inside your face under a zit. I became obsessed with popping them when they occurred, and any time I saw a potential in grown hair, I picked at it. Worse when I did shave & missed a tiny hair, I would be obsessed with removing it. When I do grow out my beard, which can still happen (more on that later), when I feel acne under a hair, I pick at that. I become enraptured finding hairs with puss follicles on the end, or acne inside. I’ve been taking biotin a lot over the past few years which does let the hair grow back. Now, I feel like ive hit rock bottom in my mid 30s with a new child. I don’t want him to see me like this. I think its anxiety driven, but I also take meds for ADD/ADHD which I think make me more anxious, tense. Its truly an idle hands are the devils play situation. I don’t want my child to see my face all picked over with hair missing and welts/wounds. Ive ordered some new topical products & pills to grow the beard back and even it back out. I know it’ll even out soon. I know that the sun will heal the scabs on my face, but you know skin cancer is a thing. This is my rock bottom, writing this and joining the forum. I need help. Ive tried stress balls and fidget toys, to little success. I need to break the sensory feeling of pulling a hair out of my face / popping a pimple. Any advice would help

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I don’t see many males on reddit trich forums. I’m a male 42 yrs old and my pulling began after taking adderall. I knew I couldn’t be the only one mentioning this nasty side effect. I now hide out like a leper with no eyebrows left to speak and eyelashes too. Might as well put a hunch on my back cause that’s how I feel. I’ll be coming down from my addy in the evening watching tv and I’m off to the races. So I’m right there with you buddy, I can appreciate how you’re feeling.