I have taken this disorder to a whole new level. I am miserable and I need help. I had eaten my hair routinely during most of my teenage years up until the age of 17 or so (21 now). I had stopped and thought nothing of this, and that it was a phase, forgot about it and moved on with my life. Over the past year I have developed a lot of stomach issues and I started to worry that I have developed a hairball (Trichobezoar) over all these years. The pain comes and goes almost like gas pains, but usually I am able to forget it's there, move forward, and continue to live a normalish life. I fear that it will take my life. I also fear that if I attempt to get help I might take my own life if the reactions and judgments from my peers, family, and doctors are to hurtful. I would understand though. I did this to myself. I'm not normal and I am disgusting, but I am desperate to live a regular life so I may just deal with the criticism, get myself a new stomach, and move to Australia lol. I have hope, but i am more fearful of rejection and humiliation.
Can someone please help me, or just talk with me about this and give me some advice?
I pray that someone else on here is going through the same things, or went through these things before and got help so that we can either help each other, or if the latter, help me please. Thank you.
If there is someone that also eats their hair and feels like they are alone, please contact me. We need each other. Or at least I need you. No one will understand us, like we understand each other. We can get help together. I'm sure no one wants to go through this alone. This is a whole different ballgame than just pulling hair, and I need a teammate.
Thank you all.