Hi, I've had trich for about 4 years now. Right now I'm in eighth grade, and I think it started when I was in fourth grade. In fourth grade, I just pulled at my scalp, near the beginning of the hairline, and my parents noticed it after a few days. They kept asking if I was pulling my hair, but I just kept denying it. I don't know how I stopped, but by the end of fourth grade I had stopped pulling my hair.
I began to pull again in fifth grade, after I got diagnosed with Systemic JIA. I guess it was because of stress from having to take all the different meds. I mostly plucked my eyebrows and eyelashes. I'm not exactly sure how it started, but I remember I was just in the car one day when I realized I had a long piece of eyelash. That was odd, so I tried to remove that single hair, but just pulled out the ones next to it. I realized it felt so.. Nice!! I felt like relieved and kept pulling. Days later, I found out I had pulled out all of my lashes. I was so guilty and made myself a promise not to pull agin.
But, I broke it. The next day, I began to pull at my eyebrows and by the end of the week, I had almost no eyebrows. No one really talked about my missing lashes and brows at school although I'm pretty sure they noticed. I guess they thought it had something to do with my disease.
I kept pulling everyday after that, and in seventh grade I was diagnosed with crohns. Thai raeally stressed me out since now I have two diseases. I went on a pulling spree and soon, I had no eyebrows. Like literally. After pulling, I realized how smooth it felt and liked it but after looking in the mirror I realized how dumb I looked. I felt so guilty and just cried in shame for a while.
Now I'm pretty sure my parents noticed the hair loss from my eyebrows, but they don't say anything. I'm not sure why. Bit my friends, they noticed. One asked, Do you have eyebrows? And I was just like.. Um yah. She said it looked like I had no eyebrows. Lol.
Another time, I went to this party with my family friends, and one guy was like, you have no eyebrows in front of the whole group. It felt like a punch in the stomach. I'm pretty sure my face got very red.
I get really self conscious whenever I talk to people. I try not to make long eye contact and avoid long conversations. I still catch people staring at me like, what the heck she has no eyebrows. I try to ignore that. But it feels so bad!! I used to be so popular in third grade but after I had no eyebrows, I'm just a loser at school. Bummer.
Right now, I try my best to not pluck my brows. I somehow stopped pulling at my lashes last year, so I just need to worry about my brows. I haven't told my parents or friends I have trich. That would just destroy my pride.
So I was hoping, do anyone of you guys know how to stop pulling Eyebrows? Even for at least a month? It would really help!